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Well Lawson is officially nine and a half months old tomorrow. WOW. It has flown by! He is crawling all over the place, getting into everything, and developing a quite hilarious lil personality. Plans have began for the 1st bday part **tear** I just cannot believe my baby is about to be 1...Anywho..

So this weekend is Mother's day, yes, last year I got to celebrate it as I was pregnant with Lawson, but this is my 1st one after actively "mothering" my baby. Let me tell you, it's special to me! I gotta pat myself on the back! Those first few months were NUTS! I couldn't help but think "how in the world am I ever going to do this???" There was no sleep, getting up and down to feed him every 30 minutes while so sore from the c-section, (yes, he wanted to eat every 30 min) there were the crazy hormones, and my child threw up everything he ate ;) Then once I thought my head was above water, the teething started! There were sleep regressions, GERD (which by the grace of God Dr. Koons finally got under control) ear infections, RSV, you name it we battled it! But most importantly, I have been so blessed. I have witnessed first smiles, coos, laughs, rolling over, sitting up, crawling...and a love I never dreamed possible.

It is so amazing to me how parenthood can be so extremely difficult, challenging, frustrating, and confusing, it is very hard work, yet it is literally the best and most fulfilling thing in the world. If I have been up all night the night before and I am dragging at work, I am still watching the clock just anxiously waiting to get back to him. And though I know we celebrate our work as Mother's on Mother's day, I also gotta ive Lawson a big pat on the back too! He has came a LONG way, he has quadrupled his weight, sleeps all night, has a sweet, sensitive, abundantly happy lil personality... Believe it or not people, he's sweeter than he is cute! I am so extremely proud of him, putting in the hard work and sleepless nights are much easier when I get to look at him everyday. He's just amazing in every aspect. I look at this little boy and I KNOW with every bit of my being that I was put here to be his Momma. I have no idea how I could possibly deserve such an angel, but I thank God that He has trusted me to be this lil boys Mommy.

Happy Mothers day Momma's! And for all of you still hoping to celebrate this day, you have no idea how CERTAIN I was that I would never be typing a blog like this, I spent MANY a Mothers Day crying my face off! Do NOT give up keep your eye on the prize, ;)